The Final Countdown

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5 days out…does anyone know how to make time go faster?

I’m so ready to have this done, honestly. I am so anxious to start my new life. All of my blended soups are pre-made and in the freezer for Stage 2 diet, I’ve been following my pre-op diet pretty strictly (while I indulged a bit on Sunday, I indulged in things I’m allowed to have–grilled chicken, veggies, light yogurt, and fruit), I’ve been drinking my water…I’m ready to get the show on the road!

The next few days are going to be spent cleaning the apartment, since my mom is coming down a few days post-surgery just in case I need help, and I don’t want to greet her with a messy apartment. Then a few weeks after surgery, we’ll be having a house guest, so hopefully the apartment will stay clean long enough for her visit. I’m trying to keep myself busy because the anticipation is driving me crazy.

I’m going to be glad to have a bit off work. I just started this new job, so I’ve been trying to take as little time off as possible…between trying to show that I’m committed to the company and the fact that I needed to save days for my surgery, I’m burning out a bit. While post-surgery down-time isn’t the rest I had in mind, it’s a break from the action, which I’m grateful for. I plan on doing three major things while I heal: sleep, play video games, and read. If I’m being completely honest, I’ll probably do more sleeping than anything else.

This weekend will be spent celebrating with my family in Connecticut (where I grew up). It’ll be so good to see them and spend time with the people who make me laugh more than anyone else in the world. I’m just sad that I won’t get to see my father before my surgery–after my parents divorced in May, he moved down to Florida and I haven’t seen him since. We talk on the phone frequently, but it’s hard knowing that I can’t hug him before I go in.

Until I started writing this post, I didn’t realize how much I miss my father. Talking on the phone is nice, but it’s hard not being able to hug him and have a real, honest-to-goodness, face-to-face conversation. I must admit, I had to take a break while writing this post so I could send him a “hi, I love you, I miss you” email. Even now I’m getting teary-eyed thinking about how I won’t get to say goodbye if something should happen…but I can’t think like that. 

Anthony  is very nervous that something is going to go wrong–he hates hospitals (although luckily, the hospital I’m going to is really nice and the least hospitaly-hospital I’ve even been to, and the food is amazing), and the idea of me undergoing major surgery scares the crap out of him (understandably). He’s always said that he supports ME but not the idea of me undergoing major surgery…I wish there were more I could do to make him feel better. Meeting with my doctor didn’t help things either; he said it made him MORE nervous about the whole thing because even though the numbers the doctor gave him are low, all he can focus on are this risks of complication. It’s like when Dr. Chau said there’s a 1% chance of blood clots, all Anthony heard was “There’s a chance of blood clots.” It’s super frustrating.

I’m just a ball of nerves and emotion right now…I don’t really know what I’m feeling.

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One week!!

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This time next week I’ll be in surgery…eep!!

I’m so ready to have this done, honestly. I am so anxious to start my new life. All of my blended soups are pre-made and in the freezer for Stage 2 diet, I’ve been following my pre-op diet pretty strictly (while I indulged a bit on Sunday, I indulged in things I’m allowed to have–grilled chicken, veggies, light yogurt, and fruit), I’ve been drinking my water…I’m ready to get the show on the road!

The next few days are going to be spent cleaning the apartment, since my mom is coming down a few days post-surgery just in case I need help, and I don’t want to greet her with a messy apartment. Then a few weeks after surgery, we’ll be having a house guest, so hopefully the apartment will stay clean long enough for her visit. I’m trying to keep myself busy because the anticipation is driving me crazy.

I’m going to be glad to have a bit off work. I just started this new job, so I’ve been trying to take as little time off as possible…between trying to show that I’m committed to the company and the fact that I needed to save days for my surgery, I’m burning out a bit. While post-surgery down-time isn’t the rest I had in mind, it’s a break from the action, which I’m grateful for. I plan on doing three major things while I heal: sleep, play video games, and read. If I’m being completely honest, I’ll probably do more sleeping than anything else.

The best part about this whole thing (other than starting a new life and getting healthy) is that I’ll get 10 days of KITTY TIME!!! I love my kitties dearly (I have two of them), but I don’t get to spend as much time with them as I’d like (which, let’s be honest, enough time = all day, every day), so I’ll be able to catch up with my Stitchy and Quorra.

Update, update, update!!

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I know I’ve been radio silent for the past few months, but I have good reasons, I promise.

1)      I started a new (permanent) job!

Yes, I finally—finally­­—landed a permanent job. Actually, I found 2 jobs—I was a travel agent for 3 days before I found out about the job I ultimately took.

After 4 years of temping, I’ve finally found a job that I love, with holidays, sick time, and benefits!! I’m a Customer Service Rep for a software company (no one you’ve ever heard of; it’s a very niche market). The people I work with are fabulous, the company culture is great (with the exception of a no-tattoo policy that makes shoe shopping difficult, due to my foot tattoo), and the pay is really good. Even though I come home exhausted every day, it’s the best kind of exhausted—the kind of exhausted you get when your bran has been “on” all day because you’re learning things. Once I hit my full stride, I can see myself working here for a long time, which is good because the company values longevity. I may even see if they’ll help me fund my master’s degree (in time—I won’t be ready for that for another year at least).

Which leads me to my next point…

2)      I’ve been working hard on all my surgery stuff, and it’s finally official—I’m scheduled for my Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy on August 5th!!

I’m so, so excited for this next HUGE step in my life. I’m also a little scared, but not outside of the realm of what is reasonable. My company has been very generous about my surgery, since it was scheduled prior to my taking the job, and they’re letting me take the time off I’ll need to recuperate after. I even told my boss, “I’ll be home, so if there’s anything I can do from there, send it my way,” but he’s adamant that I take the time to rest up. He laughed when I told him that most of my time is probably going to be spent playing video games (he has a great sense of humor like that. He’s also a Whovian—I have the best boss ever).

I’m starting my 2 week, pre-op, liver-shrinking diet. Who knew your liver would get in the way when taking out part of your stomach (answer: anyone who has a basic grasp of anatomy, that’s who)? I’m not excited for the diet—protein shake for breakfast, protein shake for lunch, 4 oz. lean meat and 1 cup veggies for dinner, with cottage cheese, fruit, and veggies for snacks (if I need them). I mean, it’s healthy and all, but just…bland. Oh well, the things we do. I know that the next few months are going to be tough food-wise, but once I start adding things back into my diet, it’ll all be worthwhile.

…I’m going to miss bread though.

Luckily, I’ve never been the biggest fan of pasta, and since I have a diabetic husband, my food restrictions are going to, in turn, improve his diet. I mean, I’m not going to deprive him of the things he loves just because I can’t eat them, but if he sees ME eating healthy and we have more healthy food in the house, maybe he’ll start gravitating more towards those healthy options.  He even asked me last night if there was anything I didn’t want him to buy anymore, and I was honestly able to say, “No, you get whatever you want.” My willpower is going to be awesome a year from now!!

This whole experience has been one big exciting whirlwind. From start to finish, the whole process only took 10 months (which is fast, but necessary, as I lose my mom’s excellent insurance coverage on September 30th):

November ‘14—May ’15: research procedure, meet with bariatric surgeon to decide on VSG, meet with nutritionist for 3 month pre-approval diet (and lose 6 lbs in the process)
June 2015: Land two new jobs, leave job A for Job B, training for Job B and finding out if I can even get my surgery
July 2015 (now): Pre-op testing (everything came back normal) and 2 week pre-op diet (starts tomorrow)
August 5th: Surgery
August 17th: Back to work (hopefully)
September 10th: Turn 26
September 30th: Lose mom’s insurance because Obama (but let’s be honest, it’s amazing that it’s possible for me to have been on my mom’s insurance for this long—thanks Obama!! Not sarcasm, btw.)

SPEAKING OF MY MOM…

She and my dad finalized their divorce in May. My mother moved to the most adorable little house that is absolutely perfect for her and I’m totally in love with it. It just exudes warmth and happiness. It’s so cozy compared to the other house my parents lived in until recently—the other one was a huge open floorplan with high ceilings and lots of windows…don’t get me wrong, it was nice, but it never said “cozy” to me; it just felt like a house. Her new one feels like a home.

My dad has moved to the Tampa, Florida area (lucky bastard!). He’s in the misdt of purchasing a house and as soon as he’s settled in and I’m recovered from surgery, I’ll be heading down to visit him and help him find a perfect feline companion. One of my parents’ cats, Peekie, was supposed to move to Florida with him, but unfortunately, she has some health issues that would likely be exacerbated by a cross-country move (does moving from CT to Florida count as “cross-country”? It’s more like “vertical-country”, I suppose, but that doesn’t make as much sense), so he’s going to be getting a new friend once he’s settled. I’ll also be shoehorning a quick trip to Disney World in there because I haven’t been since 2012, and since I’ll be there anyway, I may as well.

So yeah, that’s what’s going on in my little corner of the world. If anyone has any questions about anything, please don’t hesitate to ask—I’m completely open about this process!!